DarKneSS 26 Октябрь Четверг, 2006 10:51
Klayton по моему мнению один из самых значимых персонажей в современной околоиндустриальной музыке.В 90-х он отметился достаточно неплохим проэктом CIRCLE OF DUST (с которым выпустил несколько более чем удачных альбомов) и участием в качестве продюсера,аранжировщика и автора на альбомах групп KLANK,ARGYLE PARK,PRONG и даже MARILYN MANSON.
Далее было участие в проэктах AP2,JUGGERNAUTZ и LEVEL.К 2000-му году он наконецто пришел к главному детищу своей жизни CELLDWELLER.Звучание его новой группы демонстрирует все наиболее интересные направления тяжелой электронно-околоиндустриальной музыки за последнии несколько лет и представляет из себя невообразимый микс,впитавший такое кол-во компонентов,что не хватит и страницы на описание этого невообразимого коктеля.Но больше всего поражает неописуемый профессионализм аранжировок и звучания о которых помечталибы даже самые высокооплачиваемые продюсеры,что в индустриальной музыке просто нонсенс.
Наконец-то пришло время выложить этот альбом. Итак... ребят, вы будете смеяться, но перед нами звезда христианского индастриала девяностых. Имеется ввиду наш нерадимый Скотт Альберт (он же Клэйтон), чел, из-за которого, собственно, и весь сырбор. Первым проектом Клэйтона были Circles of Dust, но это, однако произошло уже после распада Immortal, где Клэйтон был гитаристом (имеется ввиду не "тот самый" Immortal ). Также он учавствовал (вернее он был главным звеном) в Argyle Park, а также влился в состав Klank. Я не буду описывать все подряд, но скажу, что переломный момент вероятно произошел после выпуска альбома Disengage (еще живых в то время Circles of Dust) - он был уже ближе к готик-индастриалу и также несколько к мэйнстриму. За все время существования альбомы Circles of Dust продались где-то в размере 40.000 копий, что естественно привело к закрытию проекта. Дальше новый проект Level, но главное - вот оно! - с 99го Клэйтон начинает новый проект Celldweller. Ближе всего к новому проекту Клэйтона можно отнести такие банды как KMFDM (и, особенно по моему, личный проект Skold'a - Skold) и NIИ. В перерывах между прослушиванием Aphex Twin (он же Ричард Джеймс (британский микшер, индустриальщик, рэйвер, ди-джей в тамошних клубах и еще хрен знает кто)) и Divination Клэйтон творил. Результатом его творчества стал альбом Celldweller, который вышел в тираж в размере (смешно сказать) 250 копий. После этого "прекрасного" стечения обстоятельств Клэйтон решил добавить еще ложечку мэйнстрима и перезапустить альбом в 2003ем. Черт знает, чем бы это закончилось. Однако Клэйтона спасло то, что альбом оказался очень интересным. Драконить его начали довольно неожиданно и, в то же время, со всех сторон - всю музыку лизензировали и запихали по саундтрекам, MTV2 начал долбить в зад со своими предложениями, на Just Plain Folks альбом получил 7 наград. Это был успех, но главным достижением западного индустриальщика оказались совместные турне с Godhead и Ministry. Я не буду описывать, то как Клэйтон сильно усомнился в христианстве (по мнению автора этих строк это неумолимое и естественное явление, - он усомнился в мусульманстве (полностью и с научными фактами эта проблема описана в философском трехтомнике Колаковского)), ведь нам интересна музыка. А она у Клэйтона очень хороша!
Итак... дебютный альбом Celldweller
2. Switchback
I made a choice that I regret
Now what I see is what I get
It's too late to look back
I've got no way to switchback
It's too late to look back
Ain't ok I've got no way to switchback
Wait, how can it be too late
Because I don't want to play
With such a price to pay
Chained to what I can't reclaim
I'll never be the same
Won't be the same again
A painful picture that I can't forget
Now what I see is what I get
3. Stay With Me (Unlikely)
Sick of this mind and the games it plays
Mental enemies want to push me back again
Here they come running wanting me up on that
Tree crucified (wait a minute)
Whatever words they say (me who said it)
Whomever they betray (me who did it)
Whenever they're awake it makes me die
There's so much on my mind-we're given so little
Time--there's no way to hold on as it passes by--
So lead me into denial-help me forget for awhile
Stay with me, please don't go-if you want to be
Alone stay with me, please
I don't have much else to say (unlikely)
I'd rather you go away (unlikely)
I don't need something from you (unlikely)
Though some say I will heal over time, it doesn't
Seem too likely
It seems unlikely
4. The Last Firstborn
Oh man, I can't believe that you did what they said
You did and to this day I've still gotta say that in
My mind I question it I wish I knew what you had
Meant before you went and left me wondering to
Just an echo of your voice 'listen...'
Now I wait to take my turn to bleed like a kid playing
With a razorblade and wonder if I have the
Balls at all or am I gonna be afraid where are
You? what do you think? cuz I'm not sure when
Knocking at death's door if I will be welcome in
Or be left alone outside
I hear the sound of a heart
From the shadow in the dark
Waiting for the poison to hit its mark
(listen--my son) I see the darkness
Surround the shape on the ground the
Killer straight up and a body face
Down (firstborn-last one) I hear the
Din of the screams, sorrow in streams
The smell of farewell and gasoline
(listen--my son) I see a heart set free
And my legacy hear a voice from a
Shadow that is beckoning me
(firstborn-last one)
I guess there comes a point when you
Think to yourself "this isn't worth it, it
Isn't worth it" and now I feel what you felt inside
Brother and now I feel what you felt
This isn't worth it, it isn't worth it I
Wish it didn't end this way live a life in
Hell through a mortal shell asphyxiating
Smell for a crime lifetime imagination
Locked in a cell and to the other
Firstborn, I see the same scene that
Must play over in your mind and now
How much more I'm sure it's fucked with
Your head just like it's fucked up mine.
"listen my son-firstborn last one"
The message you sent out to me-I can't
Change what's meant to be
5. Under My Feet
So this is how it feels to suffer?
And I had too much to say
But it's over now
And I'm going down
Alone, alone
I've no guarantees
I'll recognize my disease
Before my time has gone
It's all I've found
Can't get the hell off the ground
Out from under my feet
Promises and wishes all mean nothing
When it's me that I'm speaking to
Wanting something
Won't mean I will see it through
I don't need to see these visions to remind me
That I'm dying from the inside out
Wanting you here
It still means I must do without
I can't criticize your reasons for living
When I'm the one missing them
Wanting, dreaming
That I may find where they come from
Find where they come from
Where they come from
I dream you
And I want to
Be near you
I can't get up out from under my feet
I've tried to
But can't get it through
I need to
God is all I've found
Can't get the hell off the ground
Out from under my feet
So this is how it feels, you sucker
And you've had too much to say
But it's over now
You're finally going down
Alone, alone
6. I Believe You
This is my excuse to testify been a beaten down boy
And I don't know why that's alright, that's alright
Well the truth was a lie and I don't know
How it got me to follow and it's true that the lie that was
Sold me will never let me go
What I needed you to
Say was hidden far away
This is why I've had to justify,
My head is shaken, yeah but that's alright
What I needed to believe was hidden far from me
That's alright cuz I believe you
Take advantage of a malleable mind been a weakened sucker boy without
A spine that's alright, that's alright
Tell me that I've got to fight your fights, and now I'm a bleeding
Boy without a life but that's alright, that's alright
Don't feel bad because I won't cry
I'll do your will
And not ask why,
But that's alright because I believe you
7. Frozen
Inside this fantasy
It seems so real to me
Synthetic ecstasy, when her legs are open
True Love behind a wall
Where men and angels fall
A fading memory, when my mind is frozen
I can see a frozen point in time
Where her figure still awaits
Tongue of fire tracing lips outline
Where frozen breath originates
With one motion of her waiting eyes
She strips everything away
This one moment is intensified
And colors all fade to grey
I am in the only place that I want to be
Though we know that it ends eventually
But it's alright because right now we're frozen
"I want to forget mistakes they've helped me make
It's better to be broken than to break"
Inside this fantasy
It seems so real to me
Synthetic ecstasy, when her legs are open
True Love behind a wall
Where men and angels fall
A fading memory, when my mind is frozen
I can see a frozen point in time
That is easy to retrace
Light and darkness are both intertwined
The elements are in their place with
One motion of her wanting mind
The real world begins to fade
And all the hateful things I have become
Temporarily go away
Inside this fantasy
It seems so real to me
Synthetic ecstasy, when her legs are open
True Love behind a wall
Where men and angels fall
A fading memory, when my mind is frozen
When my mind's frozen:
I'll take you anwhere you want to go
Far from anything that feels like home (lets go)
You are anyone I want to be (it's here and now, and now it's only you and me)
It's never enough (mmm that's true)
I want to stay here (yeah, and I do too)
Breakin' it down (takin' it down)
With smell (smell), touch touch, taste (taste), sight (sight), and sound (sound)
How long will I be here without you near because I'm so cold
Break them first or I'll get broken is not what I was told, now I'm so cold
I'm so cold
So cold
Inside this fantasy
It seems so real to me
Synthetic ecstasy, when her legs are open
True Love behind a wall
Where men and angels fall
A fading memory, when my mind is frozen
Inside this fantasy
It seems so real to me
Synthetic ecstasy, when her legs are open
True Love behind a wall
Where men and angels fall
A fading memory, when my mind is frozen
8. Symbiont
"Control my tiniest motions
Withhold my simplest needs
I wish you weren't this close now
I wish you didn't succeed
Yeah, so what - it's another day
You're gonna take it from me anyway
I can't seem to remember now
What it was like to live life before you, symbiont
I want to go but I have to stay
I know you'd be there anyway
I need you and you need me
So much for bliss when I kiss this enemy
Mine
Were dancing on a thin line
Control my tiniest motions
Withhold my simplest needs
I wish I didn't need you now
I wish you didn't need me
Yeah, so what - it's another day
You're gonna take it from me anyway
I can't seem to remember now
What it was like to live life before you, symbiont
I want to go but I have to stay
It doesn't matter if I leave because you'd be there
Anyway
I need you and you need me
So much for bliss when I kiss this enemy
Mine
Were dancing on a thin line
Eraseable - Expendable
Untraceable Unmendable
Eraseable - Expendable
I Wish I didnt need you now
And I Wish you didnt need me
I Wish I didnt need you now
And I Wish you didnt need me
Need You Now
You Need Me
Cause you hate me
And I hate you
But you need me
And I need you
I need you
Need you now"
9. Afraid This Time
Build them up-high and strong
So you'll never have to hurt too long
Put them up-til they surround
And there's no real you left to be found
Hold it up-high above no fear of hope or trust
Or love
Close it up-and hold your ground and wait until
It's time to finally close it down
"even if you want--you can't hurt me now"
(this isn't easy to admit but I don't think I'm
Believing it-I'm afraid this time)
10. Fadeaway
I'm not clear how it is I ended up here dej?
Vu-think of you now so far, once so near
Tangled in my own reflection--on the way down
--fadeaway
With my hands on my mind I hold wounds that
Won't mend with my eyes opened wide I can see
It's the end... tangled in my imperfections--on
The way down
Fadeaway
Don't hate me now--they've torn away the
Ground from under me right after they were
Reassured that I believed normality is not a
Word I understand at all I set myself up for the
Fall withdrawing deep into the hole this
Isolated little cell leaves me cold and faded
I'm my one and only friend
I am my worst enemy - I find new methods to
Pretend that this is not reality
Don't be lonely--now I'm your only... just stay
Far away from me when I fadeaway from me
Decline--more whine--deadline all mine.
11. -----
12. So Sorry To Say
So lost tell me how can it be I'm desperately
Trying to understand why I will push you from
Me so close but so far away I cannot see how
This happened to me I'm so sorry to say
So lost for so long I cannot tell how in my
Mind and what moment in time I woke up in this
Cell so close yet so far away I cannot see how
This happened to me I'm so sorry to say
I want you to go away from me
I want you so much to stay with me
13. Own Little World
Mutual sight, Mutual sound
Mutual struggle, for shared ground
It's safe, to say, they'll try to take from me
I'm just another one for them to break down
Steeped in denial, the daily grind
Dream of a world for me and my kind
It's safe in the alternative reality
So stick your standards where the sun doesn't shine
They're for themselves, it doesn't matter what they say
Promise the world then take it from you anyway
They'll break you down making your vision fadeaway
It's time to go: get outta my space
Welcome to a world where the air I breathe is mine
There's nothing to overwhelm me and nothing to cloud my mind
Be anyone, do anything I'd ever want to try
Time doesn't exist here, I will never die
Explain the reasons, Explain the rhymes
It's not required, inside our minds
It's safe to try, no need to justify
Or take their guilt trip at the end of the line.
They're for themselves, it doesn't matter what they say
Promise the world then take it from you anyway
They'll break you down making your vision fadeaway
It's time to go: get off of my case
Welcome to a world where the air I breathe is mine
There's nothing to overwhelm me and nothing to cloud my mind
Be anyone, do anything I'd ever want to try
Time doesn't exist here
Slip into a world where the air I breathe is mine
There's nothing to overwhelm me and nothing to cloud my mind
Come with me into it and you know what you will find
Time doesn't exist here, I will never die
(My Own Little World)
They're for themselves, it doesn't matter what they say
It's time to go: get out of my face
Welcome to a world where the air I breathe is mine
There's nothing to overwhelm me and nothing to cloud my mind
Be anyone, do anything I'd ever want to try
Time doesn't exist here
Slip into a world where the air I breathe is mine
There's nothing to overwhelm me and nothing to cloud my mind
Come with me into it and you know what you will find
Time doesn't exist here, we will never die
(Our Own Little World)
14. Unlikely (Stay With Me)
15. One Good Reason
Made the mistake of opening my mouth
Thought you'd understand but I guess
That thinking doesn't count act all
Concerned--well, sucks for me man
Can't wait to see where you will be
When it finally hits the fan
You tell me I shouldn't want to die
But can't give me one good reason
Why
Oh give it up and get out of my way
Don't bother patronizing me just cuz
You've got nothing to say I've taken
What you've told me-I was ready to
Apply "liars can't be trusted" man, but
You're the one who lied
One time my spine controlled by your
Small mind so many reasons for what
You've justified (don't kill yourself)
16. The Stars Of Orion
17. -----
18. Welcome To The End
"Welcome home" she said to me
"Let's hide away before they see. I need so much to be alone with you, I do"
"Come with me" she took my hand
"Please try to help me understand"
So pointless when my heart has
Turned to stone, I know
"I wish we could" she whispered near
"Go someplace far away from here."
While hoping that small voice would
Disappear that said "Welcome to the end"